I will keep this short.
I have hit a wave and I'm in the thick of it. It's been creeping up for a few weeks and I'm hoping I've hit the worst of it.
At 1 Year and 1 Week Benzo Free, my mental withdrawal effects have lessened to a very comfortable level. I'm not "there" yet...but getting close!
Physically? This week alone I have been hit with:
MAJOR nausea - dry heaving over the kitchen sink has returned
Chest Pain - the worst I've ever had and was so scary it required a "call to Mom and Dad" for support today...and a call to my husband at work...and my girlfriend Stephanie...it was not fun
Shingles-Like Pain - feels like a million little needles all over my spine and arms and it radiates to my legs/face/neck...at times my clothes hurt when they brush my skin
Nerve Pain - "Zaps" of pain all over my abdomen and ribs...it feels like bee stings all over
General Stomach Discomfort - it never feels "right"...bloating, gurgling and pains
Flu-Like Feeling - my body will ache as though I have the flu, but only comes for a hour or so, and it's not as extreme as a flu bug
Fever-Like Feeling - feel as though I'm burning up, so I take my temperature and it reads: 36.6
It has not been fun and many tears have been shed. The past two nights have been the worst and my sleep has gone from a solid 6 hours to 2-3 hours per night. I'm hoping for better sleep tonight.
I KNEW this could happen. I read it all the time on the forum I visit. Even the Pharmacist I once got my prescription from said, "You realize this can take several years to recover from?". And yet I am shocked. I didn't think it would continue to hit me this hard at 1 year out. I am not really discouraged, but at the same time I'm obviously not thrilled with this. The aches and pains have made me irritable and I LOATHE being irritable around those I love.
One step at a time...I got through another hard day today and I hope tomorrow is better...much better.